My New Misson

Where for art thou Mon Amour? ...Just thought I'd bring back good ol' Shakepeare haha.
Well I'm back from a no-posting phase again. So sad, so sorry! I thought now would be a good time to get back to ya since it's a beautiful day outside of my home, and I am for some reason in an excellent mood. The weather does after all, have an affect on a person.
Anyways, I celebrated Mother's Day last night with my wonderful mama. I have absolutely no idea who made it an official day to celebrate parents, but they sure well freakin' genius. And all mothers dang deserve it for what they put up with us! No matter what we do, they love us eternally regardless. To all Mom's out there, THANK-YOU for what you do! *big hug!!*

Now during these times, I've found myself getting more spiritual. By that I mean that I'm getting into a spiritual journey. I don't exactly know what the destination is but whatever it is, I think I'm heading into the positive path. I can't tell how far along I am simply because a journey is an adventure, and the best adventures never end.
This year-off has been filled with so many blessings, and I've learned soo much it's incredible. And learning is something that doesn't end, it continues and grows along with you. I'm so inspired and calm these days....Why? Well, here's how my philosophy goes:
1.)I simply take things one step at a time. Take things as they come and just go with the flow. Now-a-days I try not to turn things into something different. Accept things just as they are! My motto, 'If it's not broken, don't fix it, EMBRACE IT".
2.) Shrink that huge head down a few notches! Man oh man, people need to stop being so head strong. I understand the whole confidence thing, but the line dividing it from arrogant isn't very big. You can't live life feeling entitled! That attitude gets you nowhere (....from personal experience)
3.) Be compassionate. No special chemicals involved here. Listening to and helping someone instantly puts me in a good mood. Being kind and friendly has absolutely no price.
4.) JUST BE YOU. I would never pretend to be someone I'm not. I'm terrible at lying! Really this phrase is already overly redundant but it's true! The best person you can be is yourself. Like my mom once told me, 'Natural beauty is always in.'

Phew! Well there it is....The new lease on life. My Mission.

M.

my current playlist...
Blue suitcase - Erin McCarley
Untouchable - Taylor Swift
Temporary home - Carrie Underwood
Shut up and kiss me - Orianthi
Hello Goodbye - Erin McCarley

Long Time, No Posts

Clearly, I have neglected this blog for what, the past few months? But when a blog is your only method of connecting with your inner-self, those few months can feel like years ha. I believe the last time I posted an entry was during winter. Well it is now spring in the city, the sun is shining, and as for the white stuff - it's quickly starting to fade. The gigantic snow pile (like uber gigantic) that's been sitting in the front of my drive way is long gone, and all that remains is a small patch of melting slush. What that means for me is that I can finally park my car in its original space AND, I won't fall on my ass the next time I try to make it to the side walk.
Since the seasons changed, I've been doing a lot of uber thinking. With all this time to myself, that's basically all I do. Apart from that I'm obviously doing other little things. Take my word for it, I would name it "Living" haha. Anyways, prior to graduating school last year I made the executive decision not to continue further education and instead take a gap year. Following that time, I'll think about what I want to do. So beginning of August last year up until now I've been on 'vacation'. I'm not working, and not studying because well, that's what folks do on a vacation isn't it? More than that, it's a time when you don't have to give a damn about any form of stress, and the only thing that matters...Is You.
Now I can tell that the 'not working' thing probably alarmed you, but the reason why is because last summer I decided to leave to my job. Honestly though it was a long time coming. I was working for the same company for almost 3 years, and all those years of hard work began to look for a different opportunity. Not sure if that makes any sense, but if one thing should - when you're not happy, something has to change. Though my departure was made a positive one with the support I received from friends and family. Believe me, they really do come around when you least expect it.
Not too long ago I went out to look for another job, and now I'm just patiently waiting for a phone call. Hopefully it comes, but I don't want to get too hopeful.
Anyways, recently I finished reading a great novel titled 'Thanks for the memories' by Cecelia Ahern. The protagonist of the book, a young woman who has gone through a rough miscarriage deals with the stress through unexpected but poignant ways. As she deals with the grief of losing her first, she learns more about life but more importantly, herself. One of the things that caught my eye in reading the book was how the story mentioned this whole idea of embracing things just as they are. And when you actually take the time to just relax and think about it, you get to see just how special little things can be.
Bottom line: this vacation is just what I needed. These past months have felt like nothing I've ever felt before. Time has somewhat slowed down and things I've never bothered to notice have come up out of nowhere. It's surprisingly a bit fun. It's help my state of mind really. I'm much more healthier and oh forgot to mention happier. From now on I'll take things just as they come and go with the flow. One step at a time - day by day - and see where that leads me. I've thought hard about what I really want to do in the future, and one of those things is definitely pursue college. From what I know I'll be starting school next fall in September, and I'm not at all nervous, more excited in fact. But I don't want to think too much about the future and expect a whole lot cause that will just me a headache. I don't ever want to lose my zeal!
I get asked a lot if I ever get bored of just doing what I do. I always tell people 'never' because life is the ultimate adventure, and with that I'll never be bored. Ever.

M.
my current playlist...
Best Days by Matt White
Slide by Rosi Golan
We are man and wife by Michelle Featherstone
Apple of my eye by Ali Slaight
Look for me by Chipmunk feat. Talay Riley
Be here now by Ray Lamontagne
So here we are by Bloc Party

The Bucket List

What would I want to do before I die? I can't believe I've never been asked that question! Anyways MTV just recently premiered a new documentary series (finally something far from superficial!) called 'The Buried Life'. 4 ordinary guys, 100 things to do. I watched the first episode just hours before and was just in awe. Living prove that no road is too long and no dream is too short. It seriously got me thinking.... Life is complicated but incredible, and if I could do whatever I wanted before I said goodbye, what would it be? Gosh there are so many things I want to achieve it's unbelievable. But if I had to narrow it down to my own little bucket list, this is what I want to do before I die:

1.) See the world! Planet Earth is honestly one of the most fascinating places ever. I hope to visit as many places as I can.

2.) Learn a different language.

3.) Go bungee jumping. I'll be truthful and admit I have a fear of heights. So if it's one way to overcome that obstacle, this might be it.

4.) Put a smile on a strangers face. Alright, so I've done it before, but I want to spread my happiness to others for as long as I'm alive.

5.) Tell someone "I Love You."

6.) Have coffee with someone brilliant, who has inspired and done great things.

7.) Give a less fortunate child the opportunity to experience this wonderful life just as I have.

8.) Tell my story to a complete stranger.

9.) Live this awesome life with as much integrity and determination as possible.

10.) Encourage others to do the same.

M.

Tunes to tune out

So lately for some reason I've been really preoccupied, and very rarely do I say this, but I just don't know what to do with myself at this time. It is unfortunate, but it's obviously not a great way to start a new year. Normally I'm motivated and striving to succeed, but at this moment in time there's just been nothing. Nada. I'm kind of just coasting through life at the moment and recolecting, there just hasn't been any inspiration to draw from. I do consider myself to be a bit of a happy person, so to help get back to my happy place, I'm finding solitude through a new post. Well, it's a good first step for now. I also find serenity in listening to music. Listening to different melodies is one of my beloved great past times. Anyways for the past few weeks there have been a few songs that have allowed me to just mellow out. And bring me to a place that I can only dream of (my happy place). I find that the best songs are the ones that put me at ease, and give me some sort of peaceful feeling. Like Colbie Caillat says, "A great song should lift your heart, warm the soul and make you feel good."

Here they are, just a few of the tunes that help me get through it all.

Bubbly - Colbie Caillat The one song that I can listen to when I'm at home knowing I can't go outside do to unfortunate weather circumstances. It gives a rainy day some 'sunshine' just when you need it.
Just say yes - Snow Patrol After given notice that Snow Patrol was releasing a new album, their first promotional single was this. The lyrics themselves put me in a world out of reality......'Please take my hand. Just say yes. Just say there's nothing holding you back.'

Vertigo - U2 Always gets me pumped for a day that you know is going to be good.

The man who can't be moved - The Script I only recently became a keen listener to this Irish band. I've heard all their singles, and not one of them fails to give me coolness. The one song in particular always ends up being played numerous times on my ipod when I take a walk.

The Listening - LIGHTS The synth pop harmony is incredibly catchy, and again takes me out of stressful reality.

City Lights - Sara Bareilles Totally relatable lyrics. Living on your own in a huge city can have it's perks.

M.

Ode to 2009

The last day of 2009 and I can clearly say that the past year has been one hell of a ride. Now I wonder how long it's going to take before I realise that I'm still writing 2009 instead of 2010 on paper. Next year however (which would be like, hours from now hahaha!) I don't think I'll be doing that anymore. I admit lately I've been practicing what it would like to write those numbers. And since I'm so very excited I'm going to bring it up as many times as I can. 2010 2010 2010....
Waiting for the new year to come wouldn't be as anticipating without looking back at the past year. Where do I even begin?! Normally I have a major dislike for getting all nostalgic, but with this post in particular, I can't really help it can I? 2009 has been such a freakin' emotional year, and seeing as I'm not a huge yuppie, that means something.
Throughout I went through happy times, the not so happy, and all the sh*t in between. Nonetheless 2009 was never short of wonderful and brilliant. I'll never finish writing this if I don't stop reminiscing! Focus M. focus.... I'll definitely have some wonderful memories to look back on and share with others.
My mission for 2010 really is just to continue this ride as it is, with me on it. I'll be a passenger for life. I want to continue to grow as a person and have complete control of my own life. Hopefully 2010 has more beautiful things in store me.

Happy New Years.

M.

In the city of blinding lights....

So just recently someone asked me to do an online interview in regards to how life is like where I live. I mentioned with my previous post that I do live in the city, which by the way is still covered with dreadful snow. But I don't blame mother-nature, its winter for the love of God! Anyways we bloggers are all over the world, and some become curious about what life is like living where we are. I've been in the same place for just over 14 years years now (I could be one hell of a tour guide if I wanted to ha!) but I can't say I know every in and outs of such a huge place. But I think it's safe to say that I've lived here long enough to create one harmonious life for myself!

'City life according to M.'

PEOPLE

Who is part of your circle?
My girls: Carina, Kristyn, Sam, Angela, Charm, Gian, and Danica. 5 years deep.
The most romantic place in the city is...
Really depends on ones' definition of 'romantic'. My idea would be anywhere serene and relaxed.
City guys are like... Fish in the ocean! So diverse and unpredictable! It's a huge urban area where you can find all types of guys. You just have to search real hard to find the perfect one just for you.
City girls are like... Not like any other species in the world.
Dating here is... Can't say I date much, but from the ones I've been on it's fun if you're both open-minded and out for a good time to get know one another.
The best pickup place here is... Anywhere with human species?

LIFE
What made you come here and when did you come?
Like my parents I was born in a foreign country. The opportunities there are limited, and they wanted something better, so when I was about 4 years old we moved here. It was definitely a culture shock especially for a young girl. Now 14+ years later...I'm alive aren't I?
What made you stay?
The city life really: lots of interesting people and diverse places.
What are your favorite hot spots?
17th ave in the summer, Carina's place, and any Second Cup Coffee lounge.
Working in the city is...
Great and sometimes not-so-great. When the economy slowed a while back, opportunities jammed and all of a sudden you're under radar which made it difficult to move on towards a new position. Though in a big city, hard work always pays off!

LIVING
Your favorite thing(s) to in the city...
Spend time with friends, go out for a bite at a cool spot, and make money!
What's it like finding a place here?
Not too bad if you have a solid bank account and a nice landlord. Bottom line is just try your best to stay away from the ghetto areas...AKA Forest lawn.
What is best thing about living where you are and the worst thing?
I'd say the best part is the people you meet and end up becoming close to. The worst thing? Crappy roads and ridiculous weather

HOBBIES
Put some of your hobbies in order of your favorite things to do...
Relax, listen to music, read, spend time the ladies, watch a good movie.
Do you have a favorite place that you've traveled?
Unfortunatley I don't travel that often, especially at the point that I'm in my life right now. Though in the future I will definitely get out there more. One place I'm really keen on visiting is France!
If you could do whatever your wanted in a full day what would you do?
Go somewhere calm and quiet and just relax.
What does a typical day in your world look like?
Both harmonious and hard work

In two sentences or less, give your advice in the following areas

Love... You can never have too much!
Life... Live it the way you want to, work hard, and remain true
Friends... Fish out the bad ones, and you'll end with the brilliant ones
Family... The greatest people you will EVER meet
Work... Don't settle for anything less than what you deserve. If you're not happy, why waste your time?

Happy Holidays
M.

It's cold outside

Sunday morning of the first week of December.
There is a large screen staring at me with a blank post, and I'm deciphering whether living in such a snowy place at this time is ever a good thing. Just two nights ago my big city home went through a horrid snow storm. It's now settled and the sun has come up, though unfortunately I won't be doing any traveling seeing as my entire neighborhood is resting in about 2 feet worth of the white stuff. It is indeed freezing, and last night made me slightly suicidal.
So here I am, bundled up in my favourite pyjama pants (they're blue with coloured cats all over ha!), and my limp and old (yet warm *phew*) black sweater. Oh! and I should mention the socks that I keep forgetting to throw in the washer. So what? They're warm and I'm happy. However, what isn't making me very happy is my sleepy home (I haven't been out since the blizzard). Mind you non-happiness is never healthy. So for this brand spankin' new post I've decided to list the things that make me well.......happy.
Here they are, my simple little pleasures

-The sensual aroma of coffee first thing in the morning.
Sadly, I ran out of cream this morning, so as of this moment I'm sipping on some highly strong and bitter coffee. Not-so-great, but still bearable. The soothing smell makes up for it.
- Pride in newly purchased clothing.
Shopping is indeed one of my favourite hobbies. With that being said that doesn't mean I'm implusive.
- The feeling of a brand new haircut - always for some reason relieves a stiff neck
- The scent of fresh flowers.
- Ice cream, what ever flavour it may be.
- The sound of an acoustic guitar playing in the background.
- Baking.
- The crisp pages of a brand new book.
- The taste of moist chocolate cake.
- A pillow that perfectly molds my head.
- My own bedroom. Where I feel happy and in-control of my life.

M.